Friday, 17 August 2012

Yes & No

No:
- We were hoping to be home owners this month and that has fallen through. It's been disappointing and hard, but I shed a few tears and it's time to move on.
Yes:
-We are moving into an apartment next week. I'm used to small space living, but I can't lie, it's not something I relish going back to. At least this time we'll have 2 bathrooms and walk in closet space. Also, Oz is going to have his own room. Well, eventually. I'm going to set up the 2nd bedroom as a playroom and eventually we will transition him out of our bedroom into his own. For me, it's scary stuff.
No:
- I applied for a job at our local, indie owned, Natural Baby store. I didn't get the job. I'm pretty disappointed in myself. Back in the day, I applied for a job, I got the job. Now I apply and get rejected. I usually put it down to the gap in employment due to my decision to stay home with Oz. But if I can't even be hired at a store that fits with my own parenting philosophy....well, like I said. I'm disappointed in myself. I think I know the 2 things that blew it for me, and I'm sure I came across as an anxious ball of nerves. Apparently I have been put on a future list of potentials, but yeah...Not the greatest moment.
No:
-I have not gone to Zumba or Curves in months. I hate to say that in both places I was made even more self conscious about my body. I wish I could say "fuck it" and just go back and ignore all the people there. I hate that being in a safe environment is so important to my ability to exercise. I absolutely hate my body right now. I am so uncomfortable. I have never had an issue with my body the way I do now.
Yes:
-I am excited about my birthday next month. I'm excited about the things I'm going to see and do. The people I will get a chance to visit with. And then comes OCTOBER and all the Halloween things.

1 comment:

lifeversiontwo said...

No, no, NO. Not getting a job is like a sucker punch, but I'm quite positive there is no reason to be disappointed in yourself. <3